I'll still be here if anything.

As promised.

Like I always have been.

Because I'll never turn my back on you.

Be happy.

You deserve it.

I mean that with everything I am.

Goodbye Cariño.



For my watchers:
I won't be submitting any more journals or deviations. I'll reply to you if you contact me, so if you want to feel free to do so. But any further activities on this account just aren't going to happen. I won't say forever because forever is a long time. But it will be indefinitely. I just felt like I owed all of you a heads up. Thank you for all the support. I will continue to support you with your devs and check in with journals every now and then because I do care about all of you, but don't expect much more than that from the account. This is the last and only journal that will be left on here. I've basically taken almost everything down from my page. I didn't delete my deviations, they're in storage for any of you who are wondering. I'll understand if you decide to stop watching me.

Thank you guys for being there when you were. It meant a lot and it always will. I wish you all the best.

Love,
Alyssa

EDIT - Dev's taken out of storage. Still not back yet though.


<sub>"She blew a kiss, it somehow missed,
and i ended up all alone Once again.
And when it rains, I always slip,
The horrible weather has crept - It's arms around me.

And i'm definetly, considering dreams
are worth giving up,
when everything seems
way too much.

Girl, I can't be the boy that fixes, your broken heart,
and I know it's hard but I feel compelled to help you,
Just in case they find you,
I want your smile, To never fade away.

Just like an eskimo would say:
It's cold out here today.
Glad I built myself an igloo.. (to keep you warm)
I drew two love hearts in the snow,
Wrote out our names next to them both.
You said " don't be so immature "

And i'm definetly, considering dreams
are worth giving up,
when everything seems
way too much.

Girl, I can't be the boy that fixes, your broken heart,
and I know it's hard but I feel compelled to help you,
Just in case they find you,
I want your smile, To never fade away.

Suddenly every sentence that I convey,
is covering up, every mistake I made.
If we stayed here all night, I'm sure we'll freeze,
But honestly I wish you wouldn't leave.

This is where I say something funny,
and hope to god you crack a Smile..
If it wasn't Love why does it hurt so much..
To say.. Goodbye?

This is where you do something Cute,
and I fall more in Love with you.
I think you might be better off with someone..
Less Like Me...

The only thing i wanted to tell you
Is how I'm perfectly fine.
And I honestly just need some peace and quiet for a while
Have you ever been so tired .

And If waking up alone in a car is about as good as it gets, At least I'll know I did my best, I know I did my best to be yours..
My best to be yours.

Girl, I can't be the boy that fixes, your broken heart,
and I know it's hard but I feel compelled to help you,
Just in case they find you,
I want your smile, To never fade away..."
In A Lonely Place - Ellington</sub>